Body and Mind
September 24, 2009
I have gone through all of the difficult physical stuff, but that is not the worst of it.
I have always been considered an easy-going, friendly guy. I have worked with hundreds of people–and many of them have worked for me. I have never, in my entire life, gotten the impression that anyone found me aggressive or overbearing. Now, I am getting that kind of feedback.
I honestly do not know how that could happen. I am not aware of treating anyone any differently than I have treated others, over the years. There are several different responses I could have to this. I could assume that these people have something against me and are projecting that onto me, but the problem with that is that the same feedback is coming from several different people. I really have to look at this, as painful as it is.
I have to assume that there is truth to what these people are saying–that I am coming across that way–like it or not. What I cannot figure out is what to do about it. If I do not know that it is happening, how can I know when it is happening? What can I do to stop it, given all that?
I guess I never before realized how much the body affects the mind, and vice versa. What really hurts is that I hate the thought of being someone I do not like, whether I can help it or not–and I have always prided myself on meeting people on the level and the square. If that is no longer the case, and I cannot tell why or when, what can I do to change it?
All I can think of is communicating with the people I do business with and asking them to please give me feedback if I am coming across in an unpleasant way. If any of you are reading this, I would appreciate it if you would do that. I can only tell you that I will do whatever I can to correct the way I am relating to you. I am still the same person I have always been underneath all this and all I can tell you is that I do not want to be the person I am apparently appearing to be–in some instances, at least. It is very, very important to me.
I promise that I will listen and try to modify the way I am relating to you. I will not bite your head off. I will not yell at you. I will try to be who I am.
